Thursday, December 17, 2009

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Can you imagine yourself in a mental hospital? As you are right now?

Because you are in one. Your observations are being observed. And your disagreements are being negated. And your qualms are being abated. And your nasal cavities are being nasalated.

We are all Satiated. (with something.)

The United Satiates of America.

Are you satisfied with this. Is the void being filled? Life is about filling a void.


over and over and over and over and over and over and over again.


The void can be your mouth, your house, your box, your stocks, perhaps your big blue ox. But the world is about filling voids. And outer space is full of unfilled voids.

Fill your heart out Phillip.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

home made pulled pork & sauteed onions open faced on cheesy garlic bread is how I roll

fucking hamburgers are the best thing ever.
And the box is the craziest movie you will ever see in your fucking life.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Devalue sense perception as a mode of gathering knowledge.
I have an important issue with atheism and speculation of unknown beings. This is basically an attack on many straw men of a certain skin type, but I am not trying to refute atheism with this attack. I am an atheist. I would like to burn all of the straw men of this certain race that I have encountered, as I am a straw man racist.

The problem I have is atheists who base there opposition of a god based on how gods are followed and understood by humanity.

I could go into more, but I'd rather not.

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I'm not so interested in historic thought - how and what people thought throughout history. Should I be? I only regard it to figure out if there are still great gaps and hurdles to jump or if everything has been thought out already. And as I have concluded the former I don't quite dwell on certain hurdles already jumped (but I recognize that they may need to be jumped over again, or rendered obsolete.)

I am interested in connecting thought to various actions of the past, but no timeline of thoughts themselves will be established. N

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

First day on the job in a long while. And there is something to be said for hard work and ..enlightenment? The hard work was ritual.

I've been very interested in underdogs. Anything underestimated really.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Human Interaction

What I could have said is that Value is defined by life as life is defined by value.
I'm going to commit suicide and leave a note that says, "This is to prove I'm right."

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Also

If I had an art exhibit to put together, I would ask a dentist if I could take pictures of the mouths of the people he was working on.

Also

Women have way better job opportunities, I think.

And when you see the destruction of your hero, that is when you truly begin to live where I am. That is when you are here, when you see the destruction of your hero.

New Novel CANCELLED

Due to publisher disputes.

But I have to say one thing.

"I just forgot the key to our existence. It was a dream."

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Kirill Kabanov

His is the name of my new book coming out. This is the first announcement.

Monday, November 9, 2009

I am listening to THE WHEEL OF TIME: THE GATHERING STORM with music behind it. AND IT IS SO EPIC. And I just googled myself and realized that people search for your email address. Like on applications. This is what I discovered: battmaker.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

God fucking dammit, I think I'm in love. And it is bizarre. I suppose it's infatuation, but I haven't felt it in awhile. I think I am going to unfriend her on facebook out of necessity. Or send her a message stating that I love her. Or a letter, but when I asked for her address to send her a letter, she said that would be too romantic.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

The Hokey Pokey

So many times I've figured out what life is about. Each time a refreshing new simplification. The distinct differences of each interpolation bear witness to my confused hysteria.

The pursuit of what we can sense, and enhancing our sense of it, consumes many. Sense, the senses, rule lives. Tandemly, our senses are the limitations of our vessels. And Oh, how we love to numb the senses.

My younger brother has a basement full of toys, many of them mine from when I was a kid, that he never uses. And I live my life in the exact same way.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Here we are, exploring excellence and the lack of it in some ultimate configuration of achievement. It's time to get high and search for significance in that high. I want to tangible something. That word, used as a verb, means to touch something and, in the act of touching it, simultaneously make it touchable for others. It's all going to go up in smoke, and if it doesn't, well it damn well should.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

http://www.collegehumor.com/video:1793051

In regard to last post :: I am borg.

Edit :: We are borg.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

I would gladly give my right eye in order to figure out how we could implant a computer screen into the optic processing parts of our brains.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

I don't remember.

I don't remember what I was going to write. This page took too long to load. Perhaps writing will come to me later. Maybe I after I get up and go to the door. Or something like that.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

well'd out of my senses. Is there any room for cleverness at the bottom of a well? Murakami slipped us into one and took us places.

But he never talked about how sweaty things can get.

Kill the wheat to make my bread.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

I can harvest the brains of everyone who wants to speak and listen, or I can just stay silent. Everything that needs to be said doesn't need to be said at all. It is only the things that need no mention that we should mention. The things we should say are important enough to left unsaid.

I'M TALKING ABOUT AN UNDERSTANDING HERE.

As a human I know what you have to say.

My Bike's name is time. Boy does he fly when I'm having fun.

I killed a man with my bike this morning. I didn't catch his name, but I think he was a spokesperson of some kind.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

I'm just a baker. I like pastries in my belly and flour on my schnoz.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Giant women are not sexually attractive. (As in the size of skyscrapers) Because when it comes down to it, although they may be proportionate in scale to the sultry ladies of today's current attractions, their vaginas are way too big!

Sunday, July 26, 2009

It's time to make another entry in this, the decrepit ashtray of my life. It is a place where of everything I Read, only the things I've said high I enjoy.

But the uninhibited writing is the most prized. IT gives me the most honest look at myself. And just now I can appreciate that. Just now I can get over avoiding my honest self in pursuit of something greater. Just now I can accept who I am. Not a bad writer, but one without practice. And I will stop buying into my visions of greatness that I go bed with every night. And I will wake up to visions of greatness.

Monday, July 6, 2009

a new path

Where shall my path now be plotted?

Someplace good I think. I need to find a place where I write things down much more often. I need to find a place where I read the right things on a far more frequent basis. Where I take care of the little things in order to enjoy more big things.

I still ask if the man who eats wherever he likes and lives in a comfortable enough place and has a genuine smile on his face and laughs a good deal is has room for improvement, but my thought is yes. For whatever reason I have no idea, but I mean to find out.

Monday, June 29, 2009

"When I wore it walking down the street or going into shops, I got strange looks, a mixture of surprise and curiosity, that made me a little embarrassed."

Our intelligence is growing exponentially. And for each person very differently. That is what reincarnation is. Just difference levels of intelligence travelling through people. And we are the vessels. Intelligence sweeps down on the milling bodies like seagulls, taking residence in a vessel until they need to come up for air again.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Existence

I am a chicken with his head cut off right now. That, of course, is a beautiful existence. What does the chicken running around with moments left to live have to offer anyone. Maybe he runs the path his that life should take. Is it Nirvana? Is it Liberty? Is it Freedom?

Alive?, but with a head in the feed covered dirt somewhere.

It's an image that really fascinated me in younger times. But that I haven't thought of in a long time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ATz3AdbjyRI&feature=related

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

My new name is Stoob Vernon.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Is it just my imagination or am I imagining things?

Thursday, May 21, 2009

aye yae yi

There are so many things ~beyond that we don't understand. And it's time to revel in that (not try to quantify it.)

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Will google protect America???????????????

That is the question.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Am I the bad guy or am I the good guy in life if I am the man eating out everyday and someone else was the one living at home? Ask yourselves if home cooked meals are better than the "fast" ones. Because I have grown up lately thinking the latter. And it doesn't matter.

But tonight I can unwind ahead of the gripe grope and grind. Oh! There's a find a little piece of mind. At a whole at the pines and ' at fine russian wines. Capitilization. I want a moment of your congratuladitons for the extreme lean to the side that is righteous. But I'm not righteous. That the natural condition, to contradict it should be restrict it I say, Please Cheese. Please cheese. LactTose InTolerAnto usamos nuestros frijoliestros.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

I am thinking about running for political office with the hopes of being president one day. But it probably isn't good that the thing I'm most looking forward to in life is the release of Starcraft 2.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

what it is cool self? I just wrote you this little ditty because no one else would. And I did a little jig and danced to it when I did it all by myself. Oh lol, hahaha. I wonder if the ladies at the bank like me, I realize that I may not know. haha. I probably fart too much. I can't believe how Naieve saddle_up@mindless.com. Oh that would truly become outrageous hillarity. It was so nice to have a neat little email address. I am part of as little community as possible and I only have a few true friends. But I try always to be up for anything, and that can be the great thing about people. Sometimes I think we realize that we are a bit sheltered. And that is the way things go with misunderstood groups of people. And the more you can understand groups of people and their dynamics the more you can understand where you are going and how you are going to get somewhere. Please allow yourself to step back and figure out how you got to where you are now and what the fuck do you plan on doing when you are done doing that major time occupier you have going on surrently. Because the illusion of time ticks and it asks you, it checks your status, of figuring out where you are and at what time. When time goes slow and you have all the ability to focus on where you are and what you are doing. That is truly when time goes short. And maybe people like acting up because it really slows down your life. Those times waiting for important meetings with people in extreme situations, those can be the neatest moment. But maybe I am thinking this aloud in an area and wouldn't understand the operation of thought at the level of society that I am handling myself in.

It makes me wonder that hey, if I could do something this good, and maybe I wonder if my dad is a genius or not. OH MY GOODNESS ..i just can't believe I am realizing this.. I just think my dad is a genius, and he is either trying to keep up,, or so glad that I am exposing things.. So I don't know, but I'm sorry he is drinking again. But people just don't know how much video gaming I have done. And Even on video games, I act like people are as experienced as I am. And in an atmosphere where everyone are thinking they are as succesful as everyone else then good qualities are being applied to all people. And when good qualities are being applies to all people, then social gatherings flourish and look beautiful. So maybe I am bringing value or subtracting it from the people in my life. Either way, I suppose they want it to stay there. A lot of the dreaming is implanted in people to bring the dreamy ones out into society. USually the beautiful groups of women are the smallest group, a solo women who is away from anything that is happening, but a woman who knows what is happening despite her innocence. That is the beauty I want and hope for. This is everything I have to say in a time when saying not much of anything personal is really the thing to do if nothing is happening. I am worried, yes that the group I am exposing this to shouldn't be letting it happen and won't when they get to the end of the right line - the line that will help them to understand where I am really coming from. The line that will bring it all together so their world will understand what is going on. When they reach that level we will hopefully finally understand where everyone is coming from.

People are in an entirely different business all together. They are in the wrong business from what they should be. And once they begin to see life the right way everything will turn over. And you will be living like Tom Cruise should, only without all the crazy. But maybe the crazy is where everyone should be. I mean the typical identification of Modern America is a fascination with a movie about Pirates. I mean are things like that unexplainable to think about to other countries. It's not about being rascist, it's just about not understanding where other people come from, and Identifying, by their skin, that they came from another place. Once certain people can see other groups of certain people, then things match up, when people can see the levels of other people that certain individuals are experiencing, they can plan accordingly by exposing themselves to that specified group of people. An individual can become obligated by attracting themselves by a group of people seeing you and you having to act out the level of achievement you display, indicating what other groups should display. This is the Scholarly Installment of Wealth and The Unseen Groupings of Common Operating Families and the People Inside of all the Houses Everywhere. And that will be the Title. And today on the program we are establishing that >>yes<< there are many other groups of people out there that you cannot begin to understand. Even if you want to but glass lenses upside down, placing the curve of them on your eyes, then you should know. You should know that I'm not going to let anything bad happen to you. You should know that you are very important to me. And I'm time travelling at you right now. I Want you to know that I am crying and I am taking this seriously and that there is a lot happening. I'm finally getting some feelings out and I'm letting a lot of things happen at a lot of different speeds right now. It's so nice to just let the rains go and let the music take you. And that's what I'm doing right now, here's something I wanted to paste from earlier I don't understand or think I remember it, but let's see what I said: the topic was misunderstood groups of people. The idea I think we all suffer from. Here is me trying to reach you from a different group of people, Christian people, and not the group I assume I'm talking to. And maybe you are Christian! And more power to you. I am glad to get to know you and I know exactly how that life is! Oh do I Ever. I just don't know who is subscribing to that life and who sees me and where I am. I am operating on a very specific aspect of time. And I just want to settle in for a bit. Heres this:

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I just watched this show on channel 21 a television station called WLLA. It was pretty interesting! I haven't heard talk like this since I was younger it was called Today With God--I couldn't believe it. And The programming on Channel 8: the NBC affiliate has been outrageously entertaining. The Show "Kings" was on, and the amount of high-end advertisement was being aired on that station. It's a station I watch but I don't see a lot of advertisements on it of the caliber I saw tonight (Sunday). It seems shows on Sunday nights are watched, perhaps not by a lot of people, but by a lot of people with money able to indulge in luxury. I never realized! I thought I was sitting on the lap of luxury and that the commercials playing in this time-slot was for old people who thought they had a lot of money. (DO NOT FORGET THAT ALL OF THIS PROGRAMMING WAS VERY INVOLVED WITH GOD)(INCLUDING KINGS, WHICH IS A MAIN STREAM NBC SHOW) I have a lot more to pursue and that is fine. I am from such a small town and I really understand what that means now. I know no celebrities. So then again, I just know people who have heard of celebrities. Which means they are not really as crazy big as they are made up to be. But to be close with anyone who could come up with that kind of entertainment garnishment, could be amazing. The Object has become to make little people appear as big people to as many people as possible. Therefore the reason I have such low hopes is because I have such high expectations for myself that I am not living up to --> unreasonable expectation. And Unreasonable Expectation is a noble thing to live up to,, even if your body feels like it's crumbling. That's all I have to say for now.

I had an Idea that Christianity was not a mainstream ideal. But I think I was just buying into a group thought of a group that was smaller than they thought they were. If I can get back into Christianity I can get back a group of people that I didn't think was possible to get in touch with.

But really I am not interested in that. I am fine with living the beautiful life I am living now. And I think it's about to get a little bit more beautiful when we turn the next corner. So let's turn the page on the day, walk away, i've got sense in what I'm saying im forty fifth generation roman and I don't know them or care what they're saying or speaking or knowing.

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Why do I let myself listen to her sillyness. By many's standards I could be regarding her as a peace of nothingness that I don't want to enetertain. But girls have sex with so many different people, I don't understand how they could let that happen. I like only having sex with an extremely streamlined group of people. But I also probably think I am a lot older to myself, when I look at the way others view me. But age is another completely unnoticed before, group! It is a group that evolves on the outskirts of view, but identifying yourself and acting according to your impression of people your age and what they do in order to become succesful. And once you understand that age, then you can go forth into a world of discomfort and blossom into a great beauty of fear and bliss. blear. The weather looks a bit bleary june. I Trust this is something you can take care of said the man, Persephone, to his beautiful wife Adriel. They would kiss warmly under the fountain of Espidril tonight. And that is all the Ancients, I Was watching something and even in our culture we are constantly confronted by the spiritual holdings of different cultures.









The entirety of modern American society is agreeing with the fact that modern white society is just as big as the rest of the world and the different groups abroad. And perhaps it is, but I'm pretty sure that by looking at a map we can realize that we are not the biggest, I sure hope to God we are well armed, which may even be an illusion that we have established to sell our credit to other countries. But some veins of thought in this society don't believe that the world is actually thinking what the major thinkers in this country are thinking. We don't have the first clue and or ability to understand or justify the relations of entire groups of people to certain specifications and characteristic application to certain activities, qualities and or values. And though my mind was moving fast enough (remember that we can relate speed to time, that is all the time travel I need. Stepping into a mathbook is timetravel if you know what I mean. Haha ;)

I want to escape to Mackinaw island. I wan't to know where all the people who work there live. And if it is managing to stay in active business, if there is enough tourism. I want to go there sometime this summer. And I think it would be neat to do it by myself, but maybe I can get a job. I still have the opportunity to go to Alaska for a summer. And heavens no I Shouldn't take Kendra, she just behaves so weirdly when I am on the phone. I wonder if Tim will still want to go. But maybe he won't because we haven't been able to talk. But I sure love him and wonder where he is going with things. I greatly appreciate his role in society. His group of people is global, she may have once watched commercialized church services but she/he finally made it to a place where she/he can exist with the uncommercialized religion, the harps playing in the green pastures. And that gives you access to a nice quiet place - and I've been there before, oh I've been there. But once your there, just like I am here, you will start to wonder if the grass is always greener. And just wondering what is over there will make you want it to be like it is on your side.




DISCLAIMER
the grass doesn't have to be greener on the other side for it to drastically have an effect on your life. Either you will know which way you want your yard in life to look like, or someone might always be annoying you expanding a metaphor. And that comment seems like it would completely fill you in to understand the tomfoolery of this email message to ourself, myself, you, me, him, them, he who was is ever and shallmustalways be. I.

let none of this leak out and I will put the royal seal of freedom on the top, and letting everyone access shall be the honest, boldest success of my young life. And perhaps I will get snatched up by a larger groups of people. The story of Starwars really isn't that amazing, but it is succesful because it creates a fast stage for the intereactions of vast gbroups of people to interact with other vast groups of people. And that is where people find paralells to God and beauty. They will find it in groups of people encountering other groups of people, and extending feelers into other kinds of society. That is where beauty can be found. Where the similar backgrounds of everyone merge together. And maybe saying it explicately is retarded, but I've never had the chance to say it before. I've enver had the chance to voice my opinion.
ENDED AND TANGENTIAL DILAPIDATION OF MY DISCALIMER

Monday, March 9, 2009

I tried to find meaning in life by myself - on my own away from people. But the value ran out quickly. And now I am surrounding myself with people again. The value is as plentiful as the people willing to sacrifice themselves for the value of others.

I don't want to be sacrificial.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

As long as our nation still has dollar menu's this country's currency is still safe.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

I think the problem is that we don't think individuals are going to die. Overcoming that comes first, then realizing that the world is going to die comes next.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

There are just some things you can't forget. Coke cans are the new bricks of society. Weapons are the extensions to our penises. Bald heads are sexual. And people love getting drunk, all the time.
And doing stupid shit. And I'm right there with them.